Confusion

Close your eyes, isolate with the complicated world.

I am having a really big confusion currently. HUGE CONFUSION.

Until now, i am still not sure/decide what course should i study. I bet this would happened on big numbers of SPM leavers, seriously. It is really a troublesome issue to think about. I had spent about 5 months time, to think and plan what should i study. And now? I HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL. FML

Well, actually i have 3 courses options to consider now. I'm very hesitant among them.

First, Hospitality.

My very very first main option. I was planned to study this since i was in secondary school. I did lots of research on this course, i went to some colleges/universities to visit and understand more about it. Basically i am quite interested for the subjects and lessons they taught in this course. It has consists of housekeeping management, restaurant management and F&B as well.

Nevertheless, based on my researches and advises from some elders and consultants, my future career that related with this service line will be a long working hours job, suffer and tough to endure. Even though you are a graduated student that has a Degree certificate, yet you still have to work from the bottom ground at first example fold the bed sheets, serve the customers in restaurants or maybe be a bartender. Like HELLO?! I worked as a waitress before. I have tried to be a bartender also. I served the customers everyday and work like a mad cow. Sort out the bed sheets?! Oh please, i don't even do that for my own bed in my house. That is why i started to hesitate, is this course suits me? First confusion.

Second, Mass Communication.

Work in the media? Become a DJ? Reporter? Or PR manager? Speaking must be very careful if you are working on this line. You have to meet the public, speak fluently to everybody, communicate with others and must have a good relations with people. I can talk, but i'm shy too. I'm not good in speaking nor writing and i have grammar problems at times. Once i said something mistakenly, it might leads to a serious matter. Hence, think before you open your mouth. This is VERY IMPORTANT.

Self-image is very important too. Well-dressings, good looking, friendly, must have a good behavior. I'm a very hot temper person. Any client that served by me, sei for lor. :P But what I love, is meeting new friends. I like to observe people in this world and i'm inquisitive to understand them. This is the reason i have a little bit interest on this. As the matter of fact, i'm not sure whether it's suitable for me or not. Sigh. Second confusion.

Third, Business/Entrepreneurship.

The MOST general course to take. I believe big numbers of Malaysian students, the reason of they taking this course is because they don't know what to study. Just like me. Because, in this business line, the working scope is very HUGE. You can do WHATEVER you want or work as ANY kind of job in the future. This is where the benefits show at. You can go for finance, marketing, management or if you are rich, you can set up your own business.

Business is good. Can work whatever you want in the future. I'm wondering, which rich people is not doing business but they can be so rich? Exclude those scientist inventor, international athletes, or some noble peoples/naturally-born rich. I believe those rich peoples are also doing things that related to business.

Business can make money. Everything is good. So what is the problem in here? Interest. Would the subjects in this course boring me? Would it be difficult for me to learn? You know, a course that you are not interested yet you are forced to learn and study is really like living in a hell. It will makes you suffocated and you will be dying every time you go to class and take exams. That's the point. Well, perhaps i never take any research on this business course so i not really understand what's it about. Actually, the percentage of me taking this course is very low. But since i'm not sure what i want, it makes it higher. I just had a thought of taking this few days ago. Third confusion.

Too bad, i'm not good in arts. Or else, i surely go for any graphic or design course. I seriously need an experienced education consultant to advise me and teach me how to decide. I'm afraid i'll regret if i chosen the wrong course. May God lead me to the right pathway and guide me through this studies issue. Sigh.

Add on, another confusion is, i don't know should i go for NS or not. Since i'm still not sure what to study yet, i think probably i will go for it. Left my home sweet home for 2 and a half months, how would it feel? Fyi, my camp is at Kuala Langat, Selangor. Thank God, it is quite near from here so that i can go back home often. And the day i will be going is on 15th of May!!!! Why time passes so fast?! :(

Hopefully, i can enjoy myself over there and plan for my studies at the same time too. My blog will be dead during this time i guess. Readers decreased severely i'm sure. :(