I'm in Thailand now.. Not going to blog anything here.. Back to Malaysia d only post bout my Bangkok's trip ya.. Pictures will be upload soon.. :)
Thursday, April 23, 2009 @ 6:16 AM
The 8th day of 3 months
Sorry for din update post for yesterday. I went out for the whole day, so no time to post it. Paiseh :P Yeap yesterday is the 7th day of 3 months. Finally passes a week. Phew~ :)
Hmm.. Lets say about yesterday. I went to IOI Mall.. weird huh? suddenly go there for wat? To meet a guy named Nicholas. Ya meh? Actually not. I teman my cousin, Noel go nia.. == Lol~ You guys know wat my purpose to go there one la.. He works at there.. Aiks
Say dou yesterday pun seong sam.. Takda nice lunch eat, plus cant see him somemore.. Yam gongg T___T
Kesian betul. Cos of some reasons, so din eat lunch. :( just go the "wong kok" restaurant yam cha only.. I ordered a drink named CowBoy. It's like a soursop drink. I saw the picture in the menu looks like so nice, mana zai very bad taste to drink one lo.. Yuekkkk~~ *vomiting* Regret of ordering that. Ish! Then Noel ordered a dessert, quite nicee.. :)
Then i and Noel went to jalan jalan at the new IOI Mall. Din went there before. And finally yesterday i went d. There's really nice. I like the shops and lights there. Looks so high standard and classy. For sure i had captured some pictures from there :)
When we were walking and walking, we saw a greeny japanese restaurant. Yeala Sakae Sushi la == I know he's inside. I don't even dare to pass by there. Aiks. I ask Noel go take a look. She said he was not inside there. Then i stepped futher up and look into inside. Really takda. Ish~ After on, a waitress walked toward us. Then we see the menu that put at outside there, it's look so delicious. Goshh~ My stomach started playing drum. Grrr.. @@
But no money no need see. Fine then == We walked away.. But i'm so dissapointed can't see him. :( Then go play the lift pulak. Cos too boring liao. Lol~ Go up and down. Swt. But you know what i saw? PADINI CONCEPT!! Argh.. I rushed to there and look for high heels at Vincci :D Many nice high heels and sandals looking at me, waiting me to buy them. I look at them too. But too bad. I can't buy :((
However, i still wanted to see him. "I can't see him i won't sei sam one lorr.. Jiorr.. I want see him lehhhh.. Haizzz.." I kept saying the same sentences to Noel. She also feel sien and very fan d by seeing her face like this =.=". Lol sorry Noel :S So, we went to the restaurant again. Peeping from outside. Kept looking where is he. No.. Can't see any of his shadow. So i decided to went outside beside the restaurant and peep inside the kitchen with the transparent wall. There's a very very small place that i can peep from outside. I kept finding him.
"Why his skin so dark geh? No.. Not him. Why this one looks so fat geh? No.. Not him also.." I'm talking to myself in my heart. Mind wondering which one is him.
I saw a guy.. But i not sure whether is him or not. Looks alike.. But not looks alike also.. Wearing a black frame spec? I guess so. I don't know. I not sure. I wanted to step forward and look inside clearly. But i don't dare. Worried he spotted me. Sigh. I went back inside to the front of the restaurant. The waitress kept looking at us. Then i ask Noel to ask her whether have a worker named Cyrus. The waitress answers: "Yes yes yes!" Lol~ Sounds like she also noticed that we're finding people. Cos we really keep on walking and walking around the restaurant only. wth
Still can't see him laaaaaa.. Dns. I was so so so disappointed and sad. I came from my school so far away just to see him at there. But i went to the restaurant for few times d also still can't see him. Even a glance pun takda. Haizzz.. Breaking heart. Sob. I wanted to know how is him. Happy working at there? Think so. Without me he's happy. :((((((
Suan le ba winnie sin. Sei sam la. I walked away with disappointed look. Then how? Go home la.. What to do? Aiks.. Pity nie. Sigh
I'm the photographer of the day! :D Just took some nice angle. Hope you guys like it.
We ate this! Black Pepper with Beef. YUMMYY :DD
IMISSHIM :(((
GoodBye Darl~ T__T
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At night, I went to Summit with parents. Planning to watch movie. But at last din watch also. Aiks. Shop at there a while. Then we went to Taipan for supper :)
Mee Siam with Rendang
Soya Cincau and French Fries
[behind]Fattening supper. Yew :S
p/s: I'm going to Thailand tomorow! Hurayy~ Bringing laptop there. Hope can online yeaa :))
It's kinda late now. Going to pack my luggage d. Ciaozz~
[ ILOVEYOU ]
Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @ 12:44 AM
*The 6th day of 3 months*
Tuesday ; I'm late to school again! Woke up at 7.10am.. Arghhh.. Who can be my human alarm? Yet, i knew that no matter who call me and wake me up, i still the same.
LATE!! Ishhh
In the morning, went to the bilik disiplin with my dad to see En. Kunalan for taking back my phone. Well.. I'm ready my ears to listen all their mumble and nonsense.. bla bla bla~ Teacher, dad and mom..
Membebel jer.. Uh~ Whatever~ Finally got back my phone, but now is not with me. Aiks.. My dad kept for me d. Tonight only can take back.. Sigh
Today is a
windy day. Good weather :) And i slept in the class for 1 and a half hour! wth? I was like taking nap in the class. lol~ I know i'm a lazy pig :P Lots of dreams i had. but forgot wat's that d. Aiks.. Later gonna go for tuition again :( Today is..... Ohya~ English and Maths. Do you guys know what's the meaning of
B.
O.
R.
I.
N.
G? yeah for those who don't know then you can climb up to your house's roof and jump down to the car porch. :D
No more emo post? haha.. Nope, today mood is just quite good only. Maybe i'm going to used to it the days without him. But i still miss him lotsss! lalala~
What's the plan for tomorrow? Ngek ngek~ Wanna know?
Stay Tuned ;)
[ IMISSYOULOTS ]
Monday, April 20, 2009 @ 4:36 AM
The 5th day of 3 months
Today is Monday. The first day of a week. A boring day. Today i went to school and met En. Kunalan. The one who took my handphone. He still said the same like what other teachers said. "Ask your parents come to school if you want your phone back." Okayy fine.. So i have to wait 1 more day until tomorow then ask my dad to go school with me early in the morning. Aiks..
I miss him alot today. :(( No.. Should say i miss him that much everyday. Saw him online in msn yesterday night. I moved the mouse to his contact and clicked in his conversation. But i don't dare to type any single words nor press the enter. I sigh when i saw his pm. I sigh when i'm reading his blog. I sigh when i'm viewing his friendster profile. Then, i cried again.
My cousin said my situation now is like an actor in a drama show. Do you guys heard before 溏心风暴this show? I was like the actor named Alfred, acted by Raymond Lam. Because he also did the same to his gf. I mean.. The girl that he loves so much. He wrote everything in his diary just like me write in my blog. He waited the girl for 3 years but the girl still don't accept him back cause he betrayed his gf before. He knew he was wrong and wanted the girl back to him. At last, he's dead. Then the girl found out his diary, and she feel so regret. But the guy will not exist in the world anymore.
What a sad story. I cried when i was watching this show. When i will die? Nobody knows. Only God. But i still hope he will back to me one day.. T____T
[ YOURCOLDNESSISHURTINGME ]
Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 11:09 PM
That time i was chatting with my friends. And my handphone is in my bag and i put it on the table that quite far away from me. Suddenly... My phone rang..
"It starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose where ever it goes.. I always know.. that you make me smile.. please stay for a while now........" I put this song
(Bubbly by Colbie Caillat) as his contact ringtone. Which means when i heard my phone rang and playing this song, it means he call me! :DD After that, i ran towards the table and took out my phone from my bag. I saw his contact picture in my phone.. He's calling meeeee!!! Omggggg.. I quickly picked up, and he said this to me..
"Baby, I Miss You....."Wooooooooottttt~~~!!! How
EXCITED i am??!! :DDDDD I smile and laugh happily after i heard that. Becos finally he back to me now.. :)
Then i woke up. F***!! It's just a dreammmmmmm.. T________T
I dream this last night. Sigh. It is just a dream. It's fake! Wake up winnieee!! Sobbb.. How good if it's real? How good if he really say that to me? Haizz.. Is it a good sign for me? I don't know. I hope so too. :(((((((
____________Yesterday night i cried again. My mind reflash back where we went before and what we did. In the bus, cab, shopping mall, cinema, restaurant, mamak stall, church.. Some funny memories make me smile sometime when i think back. I miss your
"cold jokes". I never hear for so damn long already. Make me laugh pls? Hahahaha.. No i'm not happy actually. I need you baby.
Darl ah darl.. When is the time you only cool down enough wor? Ngo dang dou hou san fu jor laaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~
*screaming*Phew~ Scream loudly is 1 of the medicine to healing and release our stressfulness. Today is just the
4th day of 3 months. I feel time pass so damn slow lo.. Can faster mou? == I keep looking at the calendar. Still got sooooo farrrrr away to July. wth. Hmm.. I am thinking.. Still have to pass
2 times of school exams, get
3 times of period, take
7 times of pocket money, go for
12 times of church, go for
50 times of tuition.. Then 3 months past. Aiks.. Long enough huh? Fine.. I just wait.. :(
Suddenly my mind pop out this chinese song.
"I'm waiting for youuu~ Waiting for youuu~ Waiting for you kiss me at the night~~~~~" Lol.. 3 months jek.. Very fast geh... Hor?
*comforting myself* Swt =.=
Winnie is bored. No phone. No outing. No him. Only can blogging here. Sigh
[ IMISSYOUSOMUCHII ]
Friday, April 17, 2009 @ 7:41 PM
The 3rd day of 3 months
Bagus. Today is Saturday. hmmm~ Parents shout and woke me up. Dns. I still want to continue my dream weii.. @@ Fine then, i go online and now i'm blogging :)
Standing at my house door and look outside. Sunshine is lying on the earth. Listen to birds' singing. It's morning now. Is it a new day for me? Well, at least passes a day. I hope the time can past more faster and settle everything. Sigh. Now only the 3rd day. When only can reach 3 months? I miss you lots.. :((((((((
Song that I'm listening now: Without you by Mariah Carey
Sad song. Emo song. Pity song. :(
The time that show on my clock now: 10:53am
When can i see your lovely face? Even a glance of seeing already makes me satisfied T____T
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Going to clean up my freaking dusty and dirty bedroom later. I din sweep and mop the floor for ages d. :S And i'm going to shift my "new" pc to upstair. wulala~
What's my program tonight? Have a birthday dinner with my relatives. To celebrate my cousin, Shereen Ang 21st birthday. :D Happy Birthday To Youuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~ :)
p/s: Tomorow will be my another cousin, Cheryline's birthday. :X
p/s: Good Luck in ur job darl.
[ ILOFEUBII ]
Thursday, April 16, 2009 @ 10:13 PM
-The 2nd day of 3 months-
Woke up at 7.05am this morning. yea i'm late again. I always the one who can't be punctual. dunno why. aiks.. My eyes are better now. Not tired and
sepet like yesterday. But tears still circling in my eyes while seeing our pictures. sigh.
Today school was like a piece of
shit. My handphone had been rampas by discipline teacher. F rite? haizz.. I am sitting the most behind in my class. Me, Saiful and Wan sit right behind there together. Wan is sit jus right beside the back class door, and if any teacher pass by, it's very obvious to see him. That time i was smsing. I put my handphone in my desk drawer and waiting reply like usual. Then the babi Wan took my phone and just wan to see my pictures or music and all that. After that, a fat indian disicipline teacher named Kunalan passed by. So how?
MAMPUS laaaaa!! I think the teacher thought the phone is his. Then he just ask him to give him the phone and just walked away. wtf
We planned to after finished school only find the teacher. So we just wait the bell ring only go to the place that i get bored of it d, which means
bilik disiplin. But before that, yh told me his phone also kena rampas too. I was like.. wth?? == He also? He told me how's the story happened.. Sigh. those teachers really mcb de. Then after that bell rang, we all went to the bilik discipline to take back our phones. You know what? All the discipline teachers don wan layan us. Then we asked where is En. Kunalan? The head of the discipline teacher said he went back home already. Then my mind was like.. WTH?? How dare he took our phones d then just go back home without telling us?? Deng lorr.. then the teacher told us next week only come. == Piss of Shytttt!! Grrr.. I can't use my phone for 2 days. Dammit. En. Kunalan, son of a bitch.
Fakiu ==
Yesterday cried like hell d then today still happened this kind of shyt. CB
________________My mood getting better. I know God is helping me to cure my wounds in my heart. Finally, smile appeared on my face today. But my heart still bleeding and sad. sigh. Anyway, i'll just waiting the time past with a
peaceful heart :)
Oh gosh~ having tuition later at evening. Aiks. Bored bored bored. How good if you're beside me now :((((((
p/s: I'm going to Bangkok next week! Wooottt~ :D[ IMICHIUBABY ]
@ 3:57 AM
是你
第一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美的安排
是我
让你过长的等待
我们只要现在深爱
幸福就来
恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半
这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意 我什么都愿意
The first day of 3 months.
My tears dropping again and again. I can't washed away you and our memories from my mind. Listening the song and i cried more badly. Tears are tiring my eyes. I slept in the late late midnight yesterday. And today, i bringing a
"mata sepet" eyes to school. The toilet only have my moan and crying sound.. I feel desperate and frustrated. Teachers and friends asked me why.. but there's just sadness on my face. Sigh. No answer from me. No sound but just silent. My heart cut into pieces. And bleeding badly. I thought sleep is my healing medicine, is the best way for me. Sleep can makes me feel more better and time would past more faster.. But i'm wrong. You still exist in my dream, even take a nap i also dream about you. I tried not to cry, i tried not to be sad. But i just can't. T_________T
You said you love my everything.
You said you won't say the 2 words on the phone.
You said you won't leave me alone.
You said you won't dumped me.
You said you will fulfill our promises.
But you're not.You love Winnie, but you don't love Winnie Sin.
You trying to say the words that i don't hope to hear one day.
You leave me in the dark and loneliness.
You dumped me away because you don't need me anymore.
You broke all the promises and broke my heart too.
Why? Why love can torture a person like that? I'm sick of it. Headache from the morning until now. I was like suffering in a dark and cold water. I can't breathe. Painness flowing through my bloody heart. My mind keep wondering.. How do a person stand up back after being dumped? How could they forget everything between them? How they passed through their emo life? I really wanna know the answers. Sigh~
You had removed Winnie from your life, but she'll love you still.. :([ DON'T CRY. DON'T THINK. BE STRONG. ]
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 @ 10:02 AM
Readers, bloggers..
The previous blog had been REMOVED.
This would be my FIRST POST.
And from now on, today is my NEW LIFE.
I'm Winnie.
Wong Kok Char Chan Teng 
Can see cannot eat.. Kesiannn :(
